Saturday, October 17, 2009

Your Love Never Fails

This song perfectly fits my current situation. It's amazing.


Your Love Never Fails - Jesus Culture

Nothing can separate
Even if I ran away
Your love never fails

I know I still make mistakes, but
You have new mercy for me everyday
Your love never fails

You stay the same through the ages
Your love never changes
There may be pain in the night
But joy comes in the morning

And when the oceans rage
I don’t have to be afraid
Because I know that you love me
And your love never fails

The wind is strong and the water’s deep, but
I’m not alone here in these open seas
'Cause your love never fails

The chasm was far too wide
I never thought I’d reach the other side
But your love never fails

You make all things, work together for my good

Tuesday, October 13, 2009

In this life, nothing is sugary sweet...

Before I get ready for school, I feel burdened to post something to share with my readers. Lately, for these past few weeks, even for the last couple of months, I've been idle. Not only from my blog, but also from God. My daily devotions were becoming an obligation instead of a delighted routine I look forward to every single day. It wasn't just at home; even at church I felt His absence. You would know when He was far from you. You would. Imagine.. going to church to feel God's presence, but you come home feeling as empty as you went. Tell me how vain it must have been.
I know I'm being brutally honest in telling you this, but all of us must face it. In this life, nothing is always sugary sweet and smooth. Even the greatest people go through difficult situations and some of them may even fall into deep misery. Nevertheless, we must keep on moving forth in spite of the circumstances. The term "giving up" isn't listed in our dictionary.
What I've learned from this is our God is SO good. Indescribably good. He is loving and compassionate. He could've taken my life before I confessed my sins to him, but he didn't. He has let me live to this very day. I give him thanks and praise for every breath that I take.

Actually, one of the reasons for my indolence was caused by fear. Fear of adhering to His will. I was afraid he would withdraw from me what I loved most. It's happened to me more than once in such a brief time; I was in massive depression. It's very ironic, since I keep saying this and that about obeying and completely relying on Him. Yet I am struggling to overcome the same obstacle. I was not lying. But I didn't know how difficult it is to do until I fully experienced it myself.
It made me realize I was being selfish, egotistical, greedy; only caring about MY needs, MY wants.. ALL mine. When you come to think about it, when was the last time you did something good for God? It doesn't have to be amazing.. just good.

This wouldn't be so hard to do if you had nothing you wanted to retain; if everything was going satisfactorily 'according to plan'. So when the time comes, you take a step back and hesitate on the decision you have made. "Wait... you're telling me to do what, God? There's no way I'd give that up. No way."

He gave us His Son. His Treasure. Himself.

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Here is a verse that I found during my morning devotion:
"What is more, I consider everything a loss compared to the surpassing greatness of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord, for whose sake I have lost all things. I consider them rubbish, that I may gain Christ."
~ Philippians 3:8
Paul is such a great coach. I admire his faith and loyalty in Jesus Christ. Despite how cruel and nasty of a sinner he was - condemning all Christians in his time - he was one of Jesus's most influential later apostles.

It's truly remarkable how one simple verse could change the way I fix my mindset. I was reminded of how beautiful His sacrifice was, and the fact that He, as my father, knows what's best for me. He has made everything/one to be just as good as He is. He has planned my life for my benefits. My desires, my demands, are nothing compared to what He has prepared.

You may know what to do, but He knows better. The best. 1 Thessalonians 5:17 says, "Pray continually." I hope all of you had a great Thanksgiving. I definitely have loads to be thankful for!


Much love,
Hazel


Wednesday, September 30, 2009

Blue Gravity

I'm feeling a little inarticulate at this particular moment, so this post will be exceptionally special. Just last night, after a rather peculiar incident, I decided to scribble down my experience in my book of songs and I thought I'd share this one with my readers.

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I'm losing words to say to you
There's nothing else that I can do
And this thriving silence in our dialogue,
It corrupts my hopeful dreamery

Your eyes tell me one thing
Yet what I'm acquiring
Is not my prior expectation
Which was full of sweet-scented beads

I may be too blind to see
Thus am hesitant to make believe
Baby, will you please answer me
Only then I can stop to grieve

Can you feel the cold breeze rushing in
Benumbing all my simple senses
I try to stay up, but oh blue, blue gravity
Keeps pulling me down, harder every time

© Hazel 2009

Wednesday, September 23, 2009

No, I have not yet died

My sincere apologies for being M.I.A. for over a month. I know not a lot of people read my blog, but for those of you who do, I'm terribly sorry! I'm just going to be honest with you. In the past month where I had been "idle", I was not incontrovertibly compelled to write anything on my blog. Lack of inspiration, I suppose. But don't fret! I am reading a gazillion books at the moment, so hopefully ideas will spew forth my meager, languid mind.

To start off this "new" beginning, I will open up with a poem from C.S. Lewis. His book, Mere Christianity is actually one of the books I am currently reading. He is a kick-ass genius!! [As mentioned on my facebook status]. So far, I have only read one of his published works: The Screwtape Letters. His works are rather difficult to ingest (based on my attempt to read The Pilgrim's Regress - I drove myself crazy!!), ergo I am going slow but steady, taking my time to read every single possible word written. Needless to say, I am obsessed with his writing!

I don't know which one of his works this was quoted from, as I found it on the internet. It is nevertheless a beautiful prayer, gracefully written in his clever wit. Hence, my urge to share it with the world. As for the accuracy of meaning of this poem/prayer, I'll leave that to your individual interpretation.


They tell me, Lord, that when I seem
To be in speech with you.
Since but one voice is heard, it’s all a dream
One talker aping two.

Sometimes it is, yet not as they
Conceive it. Rather, I
Seek in myself the things I hoped to say,
But lo!, my wells are dry.

Then, seeing me empty, you forsake
The listener’s role and through
My dumb lips breathe and into utterance wake
The thoughts I never knew.

And thus you neither need reply
Nor can; thus, while we seem
Two talkers, thou art One forever, and I
No dreamer, but thy dream.

- C.S. Lewis, Prayer


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