Stuff like this...

... is what melts my heart to the core.

HE said:

"I may not be the best in words,

but that is why I have you.

I may not be the best in putting together a perfect sentence,

but that is why I have you.

I may not be as poetic as you,

but that is why I learn from the best.

I may not be the perfect guy,

but with you, I feel perfect."

Band practice - March 27, 2011

Yesterday's band practice was rather a special one because our Toronto boys cooked for us! :-) These guys must be super talented because dinner was absolutely delicious. Here are some pictures from the cooking session.

Pasta: courtesy of Phil

Garlic bread: courtesy of Jon (I helped! Well, technically, he gave me the recipe and I executed it :P)

Sauce + salad: both (I helped mix)

Sorry, I'm trying too hard to steal the spotlight :P.

TADA!! The finished products

I don't need a guy....

Watch me, I'm going to contradict myself. Beware.

I don't need a guy who serenades me on the guitar/piano.

I need a drummer who makes himself available for me when I need him and want to hear his voice.

I don't need a guy to carry my shopping bags.

I need a guy who shops with me as an ALLY, not a bystander or shopping sitter.

I don't need a guy to be a mere accessory.

I need a guy who'll eventually become my life partner.

I don't need a guy with an urge to call/check up on me 24/7.

I need a guy who trusts me.

I don't need a cool, popular guy that every girl is after.

I need a guy who loves The LOTR and does Sudoku when I do my crossword puzzles on our subway rides together.

I don't need to have the hottest guy (extra buff with junks) on the planet.

I need a ~5'9 guy who's not scrawny, not obese, not super buff, but just the right size.

I don't need a guy who's good at all sports.

I need a guy who's healthy and athletic, regardless of his skills.

I don't need a guy who calls me sweet names on purpose to show off to his friends.

I need a guy who keeps it down low but still treats me as his most precious girl.

I don't need a guy with an IQ that soars through the roof.

I need a guy who knows and understands me -- not the World Encyclopedia.

I don't need a guy with a huge ass vocabulary.

I need a guy who finishes my sentences.

I don't need a guy who takes me out every time, and then complains about spending all his money on me.

I need a guy who takes me out on a beautiful picnic by the beach/lake on my birthday, makes me my favourite sandwich, brings me my favourite drinks, prepares my favourite salad, and makes sure that the napkins are in my favourite colour.

I don't need a guy who pays for me.

I need a guy who encourages me and tells me that he fully supports my dreams.

I don't need a guy who drives a car.

I need a guy who takes the bus with me in the middle of the night and always makes sure that I get home safe.

I don't need a guy who impresses me with boastful words about himself.

I need a confident guy who's humble and doesn't think much about himself. I can see for myself, thank you very much.

I don't need a guy I have to impress.

I need a guy who respects, appreciates, and accepts me the way I am, even when I'm in my least attractive state.

I don't need a guy who sugar coats my flaws.

I need a guy who knows me inside out and is truthful about my imperfections. I need a guy who argues with me and tells me I'm wrong when I am.

I don't need a guy who scribbles my name all over his notebooks.

I need a guy who cares and thinks about me when I'm not beside him.

I don't need a guy who is capable of giving me a bunch of insight at times of trouble.

I need a guy who listens.

I don't need a millionaire-kind-of-guy.

I need an honest guy who works hard to earn his living.

I don't need a guy to buy me fancy things.

I need a guy who gives from the heart.

I don't need a guy who's always mature, reserved, and serious.

I need a guy with LOADS of humour.

I don't need a guy who lives in black and white.

I need a guy who colours my days. Literally.

I don't need a guy who keeps saying 'I love you'.

I need a guy who consistently shows me his love, instead of only telling me that he loves me.

I don't need a guy that covers up the truth to keep me from getting hurt.

I need a guy who tells me everything. He's always there to hold me when I fall.

I don't need a guy who has a high reputation.

I need a guy who stands up for me and protects my reputation when it's threatened.

I don't need a guy who's perfect.

I just need a guy who keeps me real to myself.

I don't need a boyfriend who resembles those Abercrombie & Fitch guys.

I need a best friend who loves God, his family, his friends, children, Nutella, sports (soccer + basketball), music (Jazz), cooking, my mum's cooking, my family, games, Dak Galbi (at Joon's), Japanese food, H&M, Monopoly Deal, cards, magic tricks, green, his mittens, his diva, his Korean girl, his nerd, his Hello Kitty, and his Hazel.

I don't need any other guy.. because I'VE ALREADY GOT YOU.

ILYMCJ

Darlene Zschech - Change Your World

Though I'm many miles away
How could I forget the day
I held you close
And my heart was changed forever

Though I'm many miles away
I'll forever hear you say
I am Your child
Please, will you love me
Won't you stay
My little one

I live to change your world
I live to change your world
Oh how you've changed my world
Know the kindness of God
Will make a way

There's not a day that passes by
When I don't hear your hungry cry
I won't forget you
Oh how I love you
Just be strong
My little one

I live to change your world
I live to change your world
Oh how you've changed my world
Know the kindness of God
Will make a way

He rejoices over you with singing
He will quiet you with His love
I know you'll be dancing
Though your heart is heavy
Heaven will make a way
Just hold on

I live to change your world
I live to change your world
Oh how you've changed my world
Know the kindness of God
Will make a way

And when the night is long
And hunger is your song
Breathe again and know
To hope is never wrong

Change your world

Oceans of mercy calling
Heaven will rain again

Today's Verse: March 10, 2011

"It is God who arms me with strength and keeps my way secure.

He makes my feet like the feet of a deer; He causes me to stand on the heights."

~ 2 Samuel 22:33-34

"Help me rediscover You."

You told me
Look for You, and I will find
So I'm here
Like I'm searching for the first time
Revive me, Jesus
Make this cold heart start to move
Help me rediscover You

Starfield - Rediscover You

Fatigued, shaky, tired, nauseated, peculiarly COLD.. I'm not feeling too well, and it's definitely not a good way to end the day. But before I sleep it off, I'll treat myself to a cup of hot tea and write this post.

I was listening to some music on my laptop and suddenly reminded of Starfield's most recent album, The Saving One. I randomly searched for a song from the record, and ended up clicking on the second track, "Rediscover You". Coincidental? I don't think so.

Before you go on to read, let me tell you that my posts are honest. I'm not the kind of person who conceals the bad and shows off only the good side of me. I want my readers to know that I'm human - I go through what everyone else does. I am perfectly imperfect - I make foolish mistakes 99% of the time. When I write about my struggles, it's not because I'm trying to discourage, but I believe in my faith and God's power that never fails to bring me back up when I subconsciously trip on my own stumbling feet. I'm not taking advantage of God's abundant mercy, but I try my best to learn from the wrongs I've done.

It's been a while since I wrote something personal about my life, but I thought it would be necessary to include a bit of that in today's particular blog post. For the past several months, I've been distant from God. I've not only refrained from communicating on a regular basis, I've also been distancing myself from Him.. a little farther everyday. My devotion rituals are suffering in constant neglect, my prayers have been empty words without heart and much thought, and my idle participation during church is simply becoming nugatory out of an obligation I must fulfill. I'm not lying to you when I say that my spiritual life is falling apart. Truthfully, who has been able to maintain that high level of spirituality at all times under all circumstances, granted that nobody - except God - holds that status of perfection?

I'm supposed to be preparing myself mentally, emotionally, and spiritually for my upcoming mission trip. How will I face the bigger challenges that have yet to come if I don't start getting myself ready from now? It's a shame, really. I have agreed to share my spiritual testimony, but with me in my current situation, I'd be a hypocrite if I were to talk.

But the beauty of it lies in the fact what whenever I fall into this state, God always somehow finds a way to bring me back to Him. You're thinking.. "cliche", but it's true. For those who have experienced this, you know what I mean and gotta admit that. I'm saying this because His timing never misses. As of now, absurd problems are beginning to arise in my life and I'm becoming more fearless and less afraid of serious consequences, in addition to the difficulty of setting aside time to be silent in a dialogue with The One. His face is getting blurry in my mind, my heart is turning cold, and I'm slowly losing the direction to His presence.

"Revive me, Jesus. Make this cold heart start to move. Help me rediscover You."

I need motivation. I need some energy boost. I'm craving the fire that will help to melt my heart and keep it ever burning once again. I haven't lost Him; it's not too late. God will never abandon and relent from those He loves most - us. I will return to the track, go back on the road, and ask for His help to reunite me with His Glory.

Jesus, I pray for revival. Set this heart on fire to break the ice that's creating a barrier between us. I want to return to Your love and grace.

Love always,

Hazel